August 30th, 2021
Sometimes I think about the time I lost the grandma I only knew and instead of sadness or grief, I just feel hate. Not towards my grandma, but towards some of the relatives from that side of the family. My mom's side.

It's true that my family was not as close to grandma as much as they were. We grew up in California and these relatives grew up with grandma in Minnesota.

They have a different---a deeper, if you will, relationship with grandma. But that doesn't mean my family didn't have a relationship with her. We made a lot of memories with her when we moved to Minnesota and have some fun times together.

But when she pass, and my family was grieving, these relatives I mentioned... I overheard them saying why was my family so sad? And that we weren't even close to her at all. It wasn't said out of sincerity but of malice. I heard it so clearly.

I just... how can you tell people how to grieve? Just because you were closer with grandma, doesn't mean we aren't allow to grieve and cry.

Mind you, myself and my siblings were kids at the time. The youngest being around 8 years old.

As soon as I heard that, I did stop crying. Not because they were "right". But because I got angry.

To this day, I still don't like these relatives. They're still the same and are super entitled. As if no one can get on their level. No family is perfect, but these people genuinely think they are. And I truly do hate them.

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Still taking up all of my free time

August 21st, 2021
I am here today to let you all know that FFXIV is still taking up all of my free time, hehe~

I've never been this immersed into a videogame--- an online RPG at that. I was always too afraid to play online games because of the gameplay and rude people I may encounter. Though FFXIV isn't without those said players, for the majority of it, there are genuinely a lot of nice and respectful players!

I've also been creating a lot of fan content and lore for my OC, Wisteria. I actually just updated her looks last night and this will be her new look for the Endwalker expansion :)

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Hello 2021!

January 5th, 2021
Wow, how crazy fast 2020 went by.

My 2020 year end has been pretty uneventful. I picked up Final Fantasy XIV and it has been my main concentration whenever I log off of work ;; I kinda want to make a mini website dedicated to my FFXIV characters. We'll see.

I hope you all a happy new year!

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Demi

September 20th, 2020

Here is my precious Demi! She is currently 5 months old! It was definitely an adjustment to my life but I have always wanted a cat so after a number of adoption applications, Demi has a new home with us!

I play hide and seek with her every day and she constantly gives me tiny bites when she is playing. But it’s all worth it! Look at those cute eyes and her tiny nose~

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Summer

August 14th, 2020

How has your summer been? Mine has been slow going, given the COVID19 pandemic, KV and I have been staying in.

Also, guess what?? We both adopted a kitten! We chose the name Demi, base on the gravity magic spell from FINAL FANTASY series but you can associate it with the singer too cause Demi always wakes us up in the morning with her vocals. I’ll share some photos soon!

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